1am. 3 more hours till I leave for my flight to US for work. I’ll be back next Tuesday. That’s about 8 days away from Bean.
He’s currently beside me, snuggled into the side of my body. That’s how he sleeps, he pushes up against me until I sometimes find myself right at the edge of the bed. And usually, I’ll sleep with my face on his skin so I can breathe his scent in. It’s the most comforting scent in the world. Every parent knows. I’ve harvested his scent by making him wear his shirts for 2 days, bringing 2 of those along with me!
Although it’s only a week, every week is very very precious to me. He learns something new each week. He’s so interactive now. Giving me a kiss or two when he feels like it. Always trying to make me laugh by blowing raspberries on my tummy. The way he crawls towards me with his face full of determination melts my heart every time.
Today was all snuggles, cuddles, kisses, hugs and some tears. But the hardest part is almost over. It’s going to get better. Counting down till I’m back when I can snuggle, cuddle, kiss and hug him like before.
My boy changed my lifestyle, took my heart and stole my Identity! I’m no longer Priscilla, I’m Russell’s mother. Which I love!
And it will be fine… until he grows up and moves out and leaves me alone with Bun and I’ll look at Bun and go “and who are you?”
Therefore, I think it is very important that we remember to love ourselves and remember that we have other roles to play too. Being a good mother is not being a good wife. I think it is, but the men are generally stupid about it.
I’ve been neglecting Bun a lot because Bean bulldozed his way into my heart. I don’t have space for myself, there’s nothing for anyone else.
Although Bun still lacks initiatives in his Daddy role, he’s giving much more in our relationship then I am. That’s something I gotta improve on.
But now I need to love myself more. Some long overdue stuff that’s happening next week.
1) Eyebrows - Don’t even remember when is the last time I trim them, have been hiding them with my bangs. 2) Nails - I haven’t paint my nails since 2011! 3) Salon Haircut and Dye job - DIY for far too long and it shows. 4) Whiten teeth - because I can claim from company. 5) Shop for clothes - My closet is so outdated.
I’m not going to be a wet market auntie. I’m going to be a hot mother. MILF. Go Go Go!
I’m late to the Pinterest party. I started seeing value when I started using my current RSS reader, Feedly. I was too comfortable with the Google Reader that I didn’t bother looking elsewhere. With its imminent demise, I had to find a replacement. I didn’t think it was possible but I think love Feedly more!
Besides its beautiful user interface, Feedly allows me to pin images to Pinterest really easily, which I’ve been doing very often now.
If you like some of the images I’ve posted here, you can see more of them on my pinterest. Click here
Yesterday, while I was sitting down, Bean hugged me, put his head of my shoulder and gave sighs of contentment for like 20 mins.
He’s now crawling all over the place and he can stand and walk with support. He’s also very inquisitive and curious about every new thing and every sound. It is impossible for him to keep still.
So the moment of stillness where he decided to fuse his body onto mine, place his head on my neck, go limp and start making tiny sighs of contentment (without the lure of breastmilk or walks) was new to me.
It’s like we were simply existing and experiencing the moment together. I’d give anything to know what he was thinking, probably something lame like, ” ooh my head is heavy…I wonder what goo she’s going to feed me next…”
But for me, it was very very special.
Lofty Dreams - In two different styles. I love the first one more but how fun is the second one! <3
The Secret Island by Enid Blyton.
You know how some books can suck you into their story so completely, that when you stop reading, you feel like you’re being spat out, kicking and screaming into reality.
This is the first book I felt that way. Purely nostalgic, you may not like it as much.
Otherwise, favourite book is Pride and Prejudice. Mr Darcy. Need I say more?
I also like Stardust, Clockwork Orange, To Kill a Mockingbird, The Harry Potter series, Charlotte Bronte to name a few…
Books that I also enjoyed but avoid mentioning because people expect me to love them and I hate it when people are smug are The Devil’s Wear Prada and Can You Keep A Secret.
You’re my honeybunch, sugarplum, pumpy-umpy-umpkin. You’re my sweetie pie. You’re my cuppycake, gumdrop, snoogums-boogums. You’re the apple of my eye.
And I love you so and I want you to know. That I’ll always be right here. And I love to sing sweet songs to you. Because you are so dear.
This is too cute!!!
Do you think it is too feminine for the Little Bean?
I think I will just resign my fate to Guns, Swords, Mud, Lego and the customary smashing of things. mopes
I made a resolution this year to try something or learn something new each month.
January: I hosted a cosy dinner party for friends. We had Salad (Carol), Mushroom Soup and Lemon Grass Chicken (Joseph), Prawn Linguine in Cream Pesto Sauce (Bun) and Mushroom Risotto (Me). “Is that a dinner party? That’s a potluck!”, I hear the voice of reason chiding. I cooked a dish and organised the whole thing, so I say it’s counted, you shut up.
February: I learned how to make silver jewellery and made myself a silver ring. Experience was fun but I don’t think I’m too good at this and that ring in some dark corner of the house at this moment.
March: Making Bread. Maple-Pecan Sticky Buns. YEAH! So fun and so yummy.
Really yummy and forgiving recipe.
New skills coming right up: Learning financial markets, taking portraits of a baby.